Sunday, November 21, 2010

A Dream Last Night

I had a dream last night.

I was in a room full of my friends.
They had all come to visit me and spend time with me.
As I looked around the room I noticed some were missing.
I saw on the far side of the room three of my friends who were sitting with their backs to me working on computers.

I was a little saddened but said nothing.

I walked down a hallway and saw three more friends on computers.
I was hurt because some of them had travelled far to visit yet would rather be on the computer.
I asked if they were going to join me for visiting and was put off with an
'Oh, yes, in just another minute we'll be there.'

To be put off by dear friends that I loved really hurt.

Then I went to another place and saw three more friends.
The room they were in was kinda dark but I could see their faces because a blue light was reflecting on them.
It was the light of a TV they were watching.
I asked if they were coming.
Two of them didn't even notice I was talking but one barely glanced up enough to tell me,
'No, we don't want to miss this show.'

I started to cry.

I cried so hard that it was hard to breath as I walked back to the room of all my waiting friends.

I was so sad.

I was hurt that these other friends of mine would choose to spend their time on the computer and TV and not with me.

I cried so hard in my dream that in real life I heard myself moaning in my sleep.


I awoke suddenly as I heard a gentle, love-filled, yet sorrowful voice quietly say...

This is how you treat me.

Whoever heeds instruction is on the path to life
Proverbs 10:17a

Saturday, November 13, 2010


This is the month of Thanksgiving.

I love November because it reminds me to count my blessings.
To quote Madame Blueberry from Veggie Tales,

"A happy heart is a thankful heart."

I have much to be thankful for and I think the things I value most are relationships.

My relationship with the Lord,
My husband,
Our children,
My extended family,
My church family...

The list goes on.

I adore my husband and respect him in a way I never have before.
The thing that makes me giddy is that he cherishes me!

It wasn't always that way so I am truly thankful.

Dan was helping a friend haul some wood and ended up with a double hernia.
The poor guy has been toughing it out for a couple weeks now and will have to have surgery next Friday.
He's a trooper though.
No complaints coming from him.
So we will be spending the Thanksgiving week low-key while he recovers.

I'm thankful to God that He gave Dan a new job this year that allows him to have paid time off, and that he can return to work on light duty.

Unlike February.

As he goes into his second surgery this year,
I am thinking of how thankful I am for Dan.
He is hard working, loyal, faithful, focused and brings joy to others with his humor.
He balances me as I get too serious at times and I tend to get side tracked easily.
He is everything this woman wants in a man!!

I am blessed beyond measure!

So I have a heart full of thanks!

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Here I am!


Who likes it?

I certainly don't.

When your friend informs you she is moving across the country.
When other dear friends decide to attend a different church.
When your husband comes home and tells you to do things differently.
When your body doesn't work as it use to.
When your children get taller than you.

Okay, it's not really that bad.

What about when the weather changes for the next season?

I love that!

The beautiful fall colors that the Master has painted.


The grand adventure my friend gets to have in a whole other state.
The new and improved schedule for my home that makes life function better.
The reminder that even though I am not so young, I can still be fit and healthy.
The twinkle in my daughter's eye when we share an inside joke.

I was reminded last night that what we define as 'Good' may not be the same as what God defines it as.


Even though change is hard at times and it doesn't seem good at times,
I know that all things work together for good for those who love God.